im really not sure where this post would go but yeah, i think it might be relevant here.
other people r on my mind a lot, like a lot a lot. i have fandom related interests and writing and drawing but i wouldnt say thats on my mind much, other people are. imagining having conversations with them, getting anxious they dont like me becaude one friend is online but not checking my messages, etc. i also spend a lot of time dming people and trying to grt into my friend’s interest i neglect my own.
i feel anxious to tell people about my interests. ive never had many friends. ive never had a best friend before, and im in middle school! im so scared of being lonely, it genuinely feels like despair—ive spent so much time alone and honestly zoned out as hell.
i think thats whats preventing me mainly from caring less. im scared of being alone.
most girls in my class are quite shallow, mean to me and stuff. i live in a third world country (dont like that term but whatever) so there really is no clubs or whatever lol im really on my own for this one once my friend ditches me for another school next year