I find myself simply unable to find anything to talk about. Even my interests. More and more speaking sounds like noise to me.
People's analysis is so prosaic and repetitive. People talk about events that everyone goes through. Current event discussion that is simply repeating stuff I can read in the news. Info dumping about their interests. All so boring. Nothing I cannot learn outside of text format.
And they all demand you listen. They don't care if I don't say anything. Sometimes people say they like me being there. Why? I feel like a prop. I don't need props. If you have nothing interesting to contribute, I don't need your presence.
My family is getting particularly desperate. Asking those sorts of questions like "Any more news?" "What have you done this weekend?" "Anything else to say?" "Everything good?". They just don't get the hint I don't have anything to say. They feel like people always have something to say, even if it's talking for the sake of talking. I don't need that. I want information that is relevant to my life.
How do I fix this? Should I fix this?