I haven’t seen this person since March 22nd and it’s killing me inside. What are ways that one can leave a situation becoming debilitatingly distressful to take some time to allow things to settle, get my head right, get back to meetings, etc? One of the last things he told me is, he thinks I have been planning this break up. I have not been at all. I broke my promise to him that he could have part of the final say in my new apartment complex and I feel awful but circumstances were really factor and I did not have much time. A family member has to be a guarantor for me so I had to work with schedule and availability and also he was really pushing the Police part. I absolutely love it. Don’t get me wrong but I’m just sad that the reason he is so mad at me is because he didn’t like this apartment complex because he thought I would see people at the pool and go make friends or meet other men. I haven’t been seeing anyone. If anyone else has found themselves in a situation similar to this and the wave of sadness sometimes feels so intense, will you please share some suggestions or experience with me? I can’t decide if I made the right decision leaving something that was making it very difficult for me (because of my own shoes and my own anxiety level) to function or feel present in my body in any moment or not be so highly anxious and irritable around the clock.
My heart hurts and I don’t know what to do. I just literally needed to rip myself out of this situation because I was starting to have some pretty dark thoughts about my own personal life. Overtime things hurt bad. Thank you in advance for any suggestions! He would not allow me to take space. He kept texting me that if I didn’t call him back within 24 hours or at a certain time that he would block me and move on forever and I cannot continue to be around that every day all the time.