I'm 28M software engineer.
Anxiety, depression, loneliness, dependent family – toxic, sick and fighting parents, disabled siblings, rejection heart break, my chronic health issues etc. In my country it's a basic expectation to take care of parents and dependent siblings.
Only positive thing in my life that drives me forward is my career and academics. I'd say I'm better than 80-90% of the people in my social circle and in the top 1% tax payers of my country. But ironically this causes me more stress than anything else because of the regret of not achieving my full potential due to these mental health issues.
Every single day for last 6 years, I wake up feeling lonely, decide that I'll make a career comeback and spend the day in depression. I know it sounds like I'm whining because lot of people have far worse issues. But it's just.. I'm tired man. I'm sooo fkn tired in life. I don't even what I live for anymore. At this point I don't have a single positive thing in my life to look forward to.
I just need an advice on how to handle this. I'm expecting far worse issues happen in future. How do you guys deal with this. Just give me your perspective or a book to read or just a simple advice.