Nothing to fall back on due to family lost in addiction, grew up in poverty etc so quite literally they cannot help me. Been this way for years I moved out very young and supported myself since 18. Rent, bills, food, essentials, medical, life etc all from just grinding away working in places.
But at the same time I wasn't healthy in my mind so I would spend all my money on travelling ,clothes and having fun. Which isn't an awful trade off but boy do I wish I invested it all now I'm 33 lol.
I work within music industry and it's just not good enough pay for me these days.
I don't know what else I'd do aside from any random job like supermarket etc. I've worked for myself for so long.
There is a lot of potential in it but still not sure.
EDIT: I should add I work online/remotely and not in my home country currently, don't plan on returning