In the early stages of potentially moving in with my (30F) boyfriend (29M).
I've been wanting to change jobs for a while and a job at a company that I have been interested in listed a position.
I applied for it and got a response back without getting an interview. Naturally I was disappointed, I emailed the company (professionally) and asked why I didn't even get an interview
They said I was qualified for the position but had a stronger candidate who had an additional qualification.
While telling my partner about it he replied "Well, they just chose someone who is better than you"
I told him that that hurt my feelings a lot and I didn't appreciate it. He did apologise but it doesn't make it hurt any less.
It just stirred something in me as this time two years ago I got broken up with a few days before my birthday by a man I thought I'd be with forever before "I wasn't enough for him". So those two combined things are just making me feel real sorry for myself
I ended the phone call with him shortly after that but I've just been reflecting on it. Also during the call he told me he was getting a suit jacket I had bought for him tailored tomorrow, I asked him why he doesn't get me anything (it wasn't intended as 'tit for tat', just a thought that occurred to me in the moment), he replied that he gets me lots of things
When I asked him "like what", he struggled to come up with anything.
I think I'm just feeling down and underappreciated at the moment, not really sure what I want out of this post