So I have been dating my boyfriend for 4 months now and have not given him head. He is my first everything, kiss included. He’s the more experienced one in the relationship since he’s had one relationship back in high school, but for the most part this world is entirely new to the both of us. He’s gone down on me multiple times and anytime we see each other it’s me being the one that’s pleasured. He’s very patient and I don’t feel pressured at all to give, but it’s getting to a point where I’m frustrated with myself for not being able to just get over myself and at least TRY even if it’s not successful. I have such a big fear of not performing well to the point where I overthink something as simple as kissing his neck 😭 He’s reassured me many times and wants to take things at my pace since he doesn’t want me to feel pressured. He obviously knows it will be my first time and is not expecting anything crazy, I trust and care about him so much and he deserves to be treated as well as he treats me. I guess I just want to know if anybody else has gone through this? Any advice to stop being so nervous and take the initiative?