Hey everyone I'll make this quick
The person im dependent on socially is my cousin , who's also my best friend, it all started when we were kids, i was the only child so we were basically twins and together in school and every class, literally everywhere not just school, that made me dependent on her socially because i was quite and she was fun and outgoing, every friend she made i kinda befriended too , i was soooo excited to go to college because I thought i would finally try making friends my own since she wasn't planning on going to the college i want but…we got accepted in the same college, that pissed me off so much, i love her don't get me wrong but i hate feeling like she's stuck with me , she gets along with people easier and she's fun and im there following her , the thing is she's also a bitch about it im not blaming her or nothing but it gets to a point you know? I've noticed when we're around people she's so rude to me and it's not a new thing she's the same since childhood, every close friend i had was an older sister material somehow, so im always depending on someone but I thought i will finally get to try getting out of my bubble for the first time but guess not
Im desperate and i need advices please