honestly i don’t even know where to start but the title sums it up pretty much. I really don’t know if i can continue on to be in something like this. when he’s not high, i just get attitude 24/7 from him. when hes high, hes nice to me in some ways & gets very sexual towards me. i hate the fact he gets sexual with me during those times because it just makes me uncomfortable.. i really want to get out of this relationship but i have a whole kid with him which is truly depressing. ive been here for 3 years, truly just heart broken & sad that this is my life.
i think what scares me the most is that if we would ever separate, he would definitely move back with his mom & his mom would be partially in control of my kid, & well his mom is kinda weird. shes really nice when him and i are okay, but once she knows something is off between us, she instantly chooses her sons side. this is why i’m so scared and don’t know what to do anymore i don’t want to feel this way anymore it’s so hard to just leave when you have a kid together