i’m coming on here because me (f19) and my friend (f20) have a really strange relationship and i’m not sure what to do, we are planning to move in together next year as we are currently 1st years in uni. Ever since we met we got on so easily, after a few nights of wine and games she basically started living with me, we share groceries we split the chores, all my house mates get on with her as well as my freinds.
we have kissed before, usually at the end of a night out so i never thought it was that much of a big deal , i have kissed loads of my female friends. She sleeps in my bed with me most nights. she hasn’t left my house in months and i really don’t mind, she has actually lost her keys for her flat but she lives with me so it’s not that deep. she makes me dinner, i will keep our spaces clean, we pick a new tv show to watch each week often only really get into something if the other one of us does as well. we share alll our clothes and have the exact same living patterns, we eat sleep and shower together. She is the 1st one i call if anything goes wrong and things do often go wrong, i have carried her out of party’s, she has cried on the floor with me. i don’t rember the last time i wasn’t with her and this is just how it has always been. A few months back she made this joke that we should get married as freinds “total platonically” it would be like a “bit” to laugh about with our freinds i just laughed along . I often joked how boys would react to us being married if i ever hit on them but she never seemed to find it that funny. We have had friends look into how getting married would work and looked into what that would loook like financially for us. Occasionally i have drunk texted my father our plans to get married.
I’ve never wanted to ask any of my freinds if they think she is being serious as i don’t want it to seem like i want it to be, so my only choice was to ask here, am i going crazy? are we going to get married? do i ask her if she wants anything more than friends , help!
she’s sat across from me as i’m typing this