My husband (28m) and I (28f) have been together for 7 years, married for 2. Just prior to our marriage, my husband began to develop an alcohol dependency that has progressed over time and came to an ugly head this past month.
Around a month ago, my husband came home obviously drunk which upset me given his history and previous commitment to sobriety since October (turns out that was not the case). I know I should’ve waited to address the issue the next day instead of in the moment, but I was so angry about the deception and the fact that he clearly drove home drunk that I yelled at him. Things got pretty heated, while I tried to get him to bed, to a point where he was charging at me and threatening to hurt himself. Eventually I felt I had no choice but to call 911, which he obviously heard, and he punched a hole in our wall and one of our bathroom doors out of fear/anger due to some past childhood trauma with police in his home. He was arrested and charged and I have been staying with my parents since. He had his initial hearing this past Monday and I attended.
Today, I needed to stop by our house to grab a few things and texted him to let him know. After hours and no confirmation (he typically leaves if I need to come over), I ended up stopping at our house anyway, only to discover the house completely unkempt, a strong smell of weed, and ashtrays all over the house. He does have a history of smoking weed and heavily overindulges in my opinion. He has also been unemployed since February due to leave a toxic work environment and has not been actively looking for a job to replace lost income. As far as I know, he is mostly playing video games, hanging out with friends, or taking trips on his motorcycle, which it looks like he did today. This has been a major point of contention, to the point where he has accused me of financial abuse because I asked him to get ANY job so that I’m not the only one paying bills.
I want to be there for him, and I want him to get sober and healthy again, but the clear lack of effort to truly get better just drained any romantic love I have left for him. We have couples therapy on Friday and I am planning to tell him then, but he is often hostile with me during our sessions and tends to try to argue with our therapist the entire time, so I’m not sure how to deliver this news to him during that time. How can I tell my husband I want a divorce during our therapy session?