Found myself in a pickle in life.
I'm 36, left my career when I was 34. It wasn't just a career though, it was what I always wanted to do, what I always saw myself doing, my motivation to work and study…and after the honeymoon phase wore off, I hated every second of it. It wasn't me, I wasn't a good fit for it. So I left.
I don't regret it (I do miss the money and stability, however), and when I think about it for more than a few seconds I know I made the right decision.
But damn do I miss being a kid and dreaming about the future. I don't feel like I'll ever be excited about something again. I mean sure, the first football game of the season might pump me up a little bit, but big picture there's a big something missing.
Aside from all of that, I have to figure out how I'm going to survive (right now I'm volunteering overseas, but that won't last forever). Everything career-wise just seems like it sucks. I have to start over and it fills me with dread. Eighteen years ago I was filled with motivation. I also have absolutely no idea what I'm interested in, might be good at, etc. I'm also really freakin gun-shy because the last time I trusted *my calling* it was a disaster. It's stressing me out.
Anyway, I'm asking if anyone here has been in a similar situation and if it worked out for you…what did you do? And how are you doing now?
Thanks for reading. I appreciate reading the posts on this sub, I really do.