Anyone been on a bit of a "lonely chapter" in their 30s?

I'll cut the fluff. Grew up in unfavourable conditions. I don't have family.

This led to a weird upbringing fending for myself young.

Anyways, I'm now 32. I moved to a new country 2 years ago.

I've done so much "healing" and it's been incredibly rewarding. Absolutely necessary.

But I am by myself. "Lonely chapter".

I'm watching coachella right now live on YouTube and just thinking life is passing me by everyone is living and I'm just trying to remember who I was as a child. Not saying it will be forever. Infact I've been pushing myself to do more lately to get into the swings of things.

But it does feel necessary as I said. I'm in therapy. And just changing my life.

IDK I'm tired. Anyone else?