This is a new account and i dont know what to put for the tittle.
Backstory:
So i (m) met this girl online where the theme is bdsm and she was very kind and patient with me when i told her that despite my age (we're both early 30s) im very new to these kind of things. She is the dom and im the sub and she said it will all be sexting only. She was very clear with what she wants and also asked what i was looking for. After some chatting, she took control and start asking for pictures of myself, i obeyed and sent her some pictures of myself in my underwear doing some submissive pose that she wants. When she asked me for nude, i held back and ask for a picture of her. in my mind i was like at least let me know who im sending my nudes to. and mind you NO ONE has ever seen me like this before (ive never been with anyone before and she seems to like that idea). she sent me a generic photo of her but it has those privacy setting where i can only open it once. So feeling satisfied, i sent her my nudes like she requested, also using the same one time view setting. i think there was 1 that she really liked and she asked for a non one time view version and i hesitated. she seemed cool with it for a while then she asked for it again, and i folded and gave in. i continue to send her more pictures in poses that she wants, tho all these are again one time view. at the end i requested if we can do a video call next time. that way i know that the person at the other end of the like is genuine. but i know that as a dom, she didnt like taking requests. so i try to insist on a short one, as quick as she wants before it get weird for her.
but now she is upset and i cant help but feel bad. on one hand i really wanna make her happy, but on the other i feel like i need more from her. she promised me that this is a safe space and that i can trust her, i do feel safe to some extent but my overthinking brain needs more proof. Is this normal ir am i cooked? need some advice.