Title given. I decided to leave my house and have a social night. And I guess for the most part it’s social. But I can’t help but notice all of the other couples around me. Even couples that appear to be on the first date. I feel happy for them. But I can’t hold that hope for myself.
I feel impervious for any of that to happen to me again. And I can’t see myself having those sort of “exciting moments” ever again. It feels like the end of my story while also feeling somewhat excited for others. No one to hold my arm. No one that can feel safe with me. Oh well I guess. It is what it is. Might as well accept it. I will never get married or ever have that ever long lasting sort of relationship. It’s the end of my story. Itll never be as easy as some ppl make it. I look around and see some couples either starting out or dealing with it later on. But lll never make it to that end.