i have two guys in my life, both are my best friends now.
guy #1: i liked him at some point, nothing happened, and then he went and had TWO girlfriends after me lol. so logically?? i’m over it. no feelings, no delusion, nothing.
guy #2: i was actually in love with him for over a year. like real feelings, real attachment, all of it. but we couldn't be together, and we both pushed away and stayed best friends .
cool.
NOW explain this to me:
why is it that the guy i barely even cared about like that (guy #1) is the one i’m still weak for??
but the feelings for him came SO SO SO FAST and MOVED ON FAST TOO you can say it was deep crush maybe
i’m not crazy about him. i don’t want him like that. i’m not sitting here dreaming about him.
but if he called me? i’m there.
and if he randomly decided “yeah i want you now”?
i hate to admit it but i’d probably say yes??
LIKE WHY 💀
meanwhile the guy i actually loved for a YEAR? i can say no, i can keep boundaries, i’m chill.
but mr. “had two girlfriends after me” still has this weird access to me for no reason??
make it make sense:
- why do i feel like i can’t say no to him?
- why would i even consider saying yes when i don’t even want him like that?