I’m 19F and my girlfriend is 20F. We’ve been in a long-distance relationship for about 5 months. We talk almost every day and call most nights, and I got really emotionally invested in the relationship.
We were even planning to meet in a few months and had talked a lot about our future together and what our lives would look like once we were finally in the same place.
Recently though, things have started to feel really unhealthy for me emotionally. We’ve been arguing more and I feel anxious a lot of the time. I’m constantly overthinking things and worrying about where I stand with her.
During a recent argument she sent me pictures of her and her ex (including one of them in bed together). That honestly hurt a lot and messed with my head more than I expected. Since then I feel like something in me shifted and I can’t stop thinking about it.
The hard part is that she still fills my days. We talk so much that the idea of leaving feels like losing a huge part of my life. But at the same time I’m starting to feel emotionally drained and I don’t know if staying is actually good for me anymore.
Part of me thinks I should leave now, go through the heartbreak, and focus on getting my life together. But another part of me wants to stay because I love her and we were so close to finally meeting.
Has anyone been through something similar? Did leaving help you heal, or did you regret it?
I honestly feel really stuck and scared of making the wrong decision.
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