Feeling ashamed of writing this: So I have this friend that I’ve worked some events with. We started hanging out as friends, and my intention wasn’t to date him, but just to get to know him. He’s not really my type physically, and he doesn’t have a steady job. I don’t either since I’m a nursing student and work on-call jobs(same as him), but he does trading, which I’m not really into. He’s currently applying for jobs and expects to land a steady one within the next couple of weeks.At the same time, I can’t stop thinking about him—what he’s doing and just him in general. However, I don’t feel strongly sexually attracted to him, even though I’ve had some sexual thoughts about him, so maybe there is a little attraction there. We’ve gone out three times to bars and dancing, and it feels like a mix between a date and just hanging out as friends since we each pay for our own things.Now I find myself feeling anxious while waiting for him to text me. I also get jealous when he talks to other attractive girls, and when he told me he went to a strip club yesterday—even though I feel like I shouldn’t feel this way.So yeah… it’s kind of a mess. And I feel like this makes me sound like I’m new to dating, but I’m old enough—I just don’t have that much experience.