The only person I could ever actually talk about sex with was a guy I was seeing. Other than that I just don't know how to talk about it and that has had major negative consequences for me. I just feel embarrassed and ashamed and I feel like there's no place to talk about it outside of bed. I get shy and nervous about the whole situation and I am terrified of telling anyone that I've done things with people. I did stuff with a guy once for the first time and then I couldn't talk about it with anyone even though I needed to. I don't really have any close confidante type friends, the only person who comes to mind when I think of people I could tell is my older sister (8 years older) who's my best friend but I just feel like it would be too horrible to tell her, like she would be disgusted even though she's not really like that but deep down she would be. Idk