I am 16 years old, and i suspect that I am on the spectrum, since i have literally all of the symptoms. I do hear a lot about how its common for autistic people to dislike small talk and prefer to talk about common interests. For me though, I dislike every form of conversation, no matter what the topic is. I do have friends similar to me that i am genuinely my true self around, but it genuinely doesn't help the loneliness even a little bit. The intensity of the loneliness genuinely doesn't change no matter what i do. It is starting to feel unbearable, i have been sobbing atleast twice a day for a long time, and i feel so burned out. I am willing to try anything at this point i am so desperate.