In advance, sorry for bad english, not my main language.
I once have matched with a girl on dating app("Boo" if someone is curious). We have been chatting with each other for more than a half a year. Our distance is more than 400 KM on a very bad roads(Mountains, fields with nothing on them and etc)
And after about 4 months, i confessed to her. I realised that i fell in love, couldnt stop thinking of her. I can easily get attached to people. We had in common that both playes videogames, and i were trying always get to play with her, but out of my every attempt, we played only 3 times, and in one time she was just a sleepy head(it was cute tho).
Then someday, after she said she just didnt wanted to play, i said okay. After few hours noticed that she is playing. Decided to look deeper in it and found that she was playing with someone. Looked up a profile, and it definitely wasnt a girl profile. I did a bit of research (When i was a 13-14 y.o., i studied a bit about social engineering and how to find information about someone) and that confirmed that she was playing with a guy. I found many proofs of the fact that was a guy and not a girl. I am okay by itself with this fact, everyone can have friends no matter what gender they are, but the problem is that she didnt wanted to play with me that day. It wasnt a good feeling.
Today i asked for an answer to my confession, she said she didnt felt anything. Then i said that we might wanna end this little relationship and apoligized for not being good enough.
Then she started to tell me that she doesnt want that to happen, called me a very good guy, were constantly apoligizing. Then i told her everything except that i know she was playing with other guy, she isnt aware of this fact. I told her that i didnt liked having a feeling of not being needed at all, i dont like that she always trying to find excuses to not spend time with me. Overall, the fact that she wasnt interested in me. This shit was pressing on me. Dont get me wrong, i am not hating her, i expected that reponse. But her attempts for not ending this relationship is confusing me.
And now two parts of me fighting each other. One convincing me that i am doing good for dropping this, the other telling me that i am loosing still possible oportunity. Can't decide it by myself, need someone from a side.
Can't ask my friends, since i know they not gonna get it serious, and the one that might help, is busy and cant help right now.