I turn 30 in a month. Last October I left a relationship with a girl I dated for a couple years and firmly felt she was the one for awhile. I was going to propose and we had plans and all the good things.
In retrospect leaving that relationship was one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself and I think I was kind of blind to a lot of ways I was being treated poorly. I had my own issues too. I don’t hold any bad feelings over it and I’m grateful for the positive memories we made together and everything the relationship taught me about myself. I wish her all the best.
I am doing incredibly well for myself now. I’ve been excelling in my new career and I am in the best shape mentally / physically that I’ve ever been. I’ve grown a lot as a person since last fall. I feel a lot more open and I’ll make small talk with lots of people everywhere I go. I’ve eliminated old / bad habits and have created a really good routine and sense of stability for myself. I have my dog, my family and a close group of friends I see / go out wit occasionally.
However I often have little faith that I’ll find a partner again. If I never did, that would be fine. But I love having that kind of connection. I’ve gone out with some women since my last relationship but almost all of them just wanted casual things. And I don’t want to do that at this point in my life.
Dating apps feel really superficial to me and while I used to exhaust them, I’ve deleted my profile and I don’t really want to use them again.
I try making small talk at the gym and when I go out. There’s a run club thing I’m gonna try when it gets warmer. But I don’t know what else to do or try. I really do just want someone to share and build this life with.
How am I supposed to meet women at the age of 30? My negative thinking brain tells me I’ll probably be much older when I find someone that sticks around