It's like he stole it from me. I met him and I kind of started masturbating to him long before we had sex (we met on a dating app and had done some stuff just not sex). I just found him rrlaly attractive for some reason. That like craziness has gone a way a bit, I still find him really attractive but I don't feel insane anymore.
Well once we started having sex, I've also found less enjoyment from solo activity. So much so that I've been researching how to increase my sex drive again, just for it to be perfectly fine having sex with him last night
The closest I've gotten to how it was is when he left his sweater and I smelled it beforehand. Don't get me wrong sex is nice, physically it doesn't feel quite as good as masturbating but damn he's getting there. I like them both equally though, sex with another person has the bonding element and you don't have to imagine things to get off since the imagined thing is in the present
How do I get it back?? Before we met I used to think of fictional characters and celebrity crushes and read porn. READ it. I haven't genuinely fantasized about a fictional character in nearly 6 months I feel like a piece of me is missing. Even when I had crushes in highschool or my first bf it wasn't like this. It feels like I grew past it but I miss my toys and fictional bfs. What do I do and is this normal?