My boyfriend of 1 year just ghosted me
As the title says, my boyfriend (35M) of one year basically disappeared from my life and I (32F) still can’t wrap my head around it.
We had been together for about a year. The relationship wasn’t perfect, but we were close and spent a loooot of time together, almost every day.
The last few months were a bit harder because he was going through a rough period in his life and was pretty stressed and withdrawn, he went through a depressive episode basically. I tried to be supportive and patient while he dealt with whatever he had going on, trying my best to stay out of the darkness but I eventually found myself struggling mentally too.
About 2 weeks ago we had a phone chat where I told him I was struggling and that I needed my boyfriend to actually be there for me( not physically as he was visiting his family , but emotionally I wanted to know he was there for me) His response was that my feelings made him uncomfortable and that I embarrassed him in front of his family by expressing them and making him react negatively (?).
A few days later he came to my place, quietly collected some of his things, said he would come back later that same day to spend the night with me and then.. just disappeared.
No conversation. No explanation. No goodbye. Just gone.
One of the worse things is seeing him posting online like I never had any weight on his existence..
Has anyone been through the same? What made you make peace with yourself,
I’m already doing therapy but it’s hard enough to don’t feel like I never mattered.
TL;DR My boyfriend existed my life like I was nothing and I’m struggling mentally about my worth.