Sometime back my brother gave my number to his friend because he needed something that I could help out with. Eventually we sorted everything out but I still kept his number and he kept mine too
I used to see him around my bro's job and never talked much only for him to confess last year that he has a huge crush on me(I had a crush on him too)He had some sexual fantasies about me too…At first it was weird and I never thought much of it..
I live in a faraway town and few weeks ago I visited a town that he lives in. I was feeling so touch deprived and the whole abstaining from sex for almost 4 years made me question why i was letting myself suffer… That weekend I got so drunk,ended up calling him and went to his place..I was drunk and high af…
I risked and had sex with him that night without protection. I thought that sobering up would make me regret but I didn't (he promised that his pullout game is strong so pregnancy was out of the picture)…I crossed my fingers hoping that he was clean..We continued with the sex the next day and I left his place in the evening…
I had so much fun to be honest…
The problem is I didn't think much about how things would be like after hooking up…
I've tried No strings attached before but it didn't work out plus I was a people pleaser too(wanting a relationship but sticking around hoping they'll pick me)
I told him to keep what happened between us a secret as I never want my brother to ever find out..
Well ,he reached out again one day after I left his house only to tell me how horny he was but I declined the invite as I was leaving the town anyway..I told him I'd look for him when I'm around again though..
My overthinking made me delete his number
I've been questioning myself if I did the right thing…
He hasn't reached out again…but this shit is making me feel anxious..
I want his number on my phone but I can't reach out to my bro because it'd be suspicious…I mean it's not like I wanna talk to him but If I wanted to there's no way I could get through to him
Should I let this one go or should I wait and see how things play out?(if we'll hook up again)