I suppose it's my fault, a couple of years ago I've allowed myself to take crumble and crumbs from past suitors. All in the name of not being lonely. They start off well in the beginning, yet after a couple of months the romance inevitably fades. I know the known rule, don't sleep with them too fast, but I'm human too and have sexual needs. Now I'm coming out of the casual sex era, I'm tired sex in the car in a dark alley, sick of hotel rooms. I mean, I don't mind sex but I crave to be courted at the same time. I'm at the point where I cut off all the meaningless connections who only see me as a fleshlight. I guess now I'm trying to figure out how to be ok with being alone.