I miss him like crazy. It was a very short lived relationship that ended because we could not meet in terms of needs (ldr being hard enough + me not being able to be sexually open virtually in terms of sharing my body over the internet) he basically ended things out of frustration. At first I felt relieved of not having to push myself sexually but now months later I miss him like crazy and the connection we had, he was in my eyes the perfect man and we got along like a house on fire but not being comfortable enough to satisfy him sexually took a toll on my mental health and confidence. I wonder if things would’ve been different if I was a little more open. For the record I’m an adult neurodivergent woman with no normal relationship history (seeking unavailable people and obsessive crushes) + history of depression and anxiety avoidance and trust issues while he erred on the more normal (?) side so I don’t know if the downfall of the relationship is mostly my fault. Do I break NC?