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I (18F) was in a relationship with my boyfriend (18M) for almost two years. He was my first everything and I was his. We experienced everything together. This was both of our first serious relationship and we grew up a lot together.
Yesterday, I got upset because he went the entire day without saying anything to me. I made a comment about it when we finally talked, and he got angry. It turned into an argument. During the argument, he started saying he would shoot me, beat me up, and other threatening things. Then he came to my house, banged on the door, and yelled for me to come outside.
After that, we both knew the relationship was over, he involved his family in it when no one ever had to involved.
The relationship is basically done now, but I’m struggling emotionally. Even after everything he said and did, I’m not angry. I still care about him. Part of me wants to apologize for my comment and fix things, even though I know the threats
and showing up at my house were not okay.
This was my first love and I feel attached to him even after this happened. I don’t know if that’s normal or if I’m thinking clearly right now.
The outcome I want is to stop feeling like I need to apologize and understand how to move forward without going back to someone who threatened me.
What should I do to handle these feelings and stay firm in ending the relationship?
TL;DR: 18F / 19M together almost two years. Argument started because he didn’t talk to me all day. He threatened to shoot and beat me and showed up banging on my door. I ended it but still want to apologize and fix things. How do I move forward without going back?