I want to characterize an argument I’m having with my partner as fairly as possible. He loves outdoor adventures and I prefer comfort (my favorite kind of adventure is travel to walkable places and theme parks) but I do like getting out in nature for short bursts. We did a day hike in NC and an overnight backpacking trip outside Seattle in 2024. It was fine but strenuous, and an extra challenge carrying the heavier backpack. I’m only 5’0” and have a thyroid based autoimmune disease that saps my energy quickly during intense activity. (I lift and walk a ton so this isn’t a fitness issue.) This was a big stretch out of my comfort zone but it was good to try and learn that the experience isn’t as fulfilling for me as it is for him. Strenuousness for its own sake just isn’t something I value and I see no issue with that.
This week he talked about wanting to plan more hiking trips. I told him I’m open to considering anything but most likely would prefer to meet in the middle and stay at a campsite so we can hike and come back without extra weight, or stay in a cabin. He said he’d want to backpack but would be willing to flex on how many nights (1-2) and how much mileage per day. I said thanks but what if I just don’t want to hike overnight? I would still support him going and bow out of the trip if he really didn’t want to compromise on the backpacking experience.
He said I am having anxiety and doesn’t want me to rule out something before we discuss an actual trail and plan for a trip. I get that but my stance is when you want to go on a trip with a specific person, you do what’s enjoyable for both people. Camping and a day hike would be enjoyable for both of us but really he would be the only one who loves camping in the total wilderness. He said “Even with me?“ which implies that his presence should be enough to make me want to do more backpacking.
He admitted my reluctance puts pressure on the relationship and wouldn't explicitly say that even if I did not go hiking like he wants, he would still want to be with me.
I feel like I need to push the point that it goes against my values to date or marry someone who would break up over different degrees of the same hobby. We have been together almost 4 years and living together for 2 years. I feel unloved for being who I am and not sure how to proceed. When we’ve discussed dealbreakers, he never named this.
tldr: My boyfriend wants us to go on hiking trips but insists on not compromising on the kind of experience only he wants. I find this a warning alarm for inflexibility on others’ preferences. How can we resolve this without ending it?