I'm 31m. It's Valetines day so I'm doing alot of thinking about romance and dating. I've never had a relationship before. I think its because im not the best talker or conversationalist. I have anxiety which makes conversations difficult. Talking to me is not like talking to others, people seem to connect with others more than me.
Ive been on plenty of dates , but it's so difficult to get past the first. I got past the first date a few months ago. We got along so well, but she wasn't ready to get into a relationship so I had to go back to square one. It sucks cause she was into me, and we enjoyed talking and enjoying our company. Yet it's not like that with others, more like an anomaly.
I went on a date last week with this girl and while she was nice, it didn't feel like we were connecting. It didnt feel like I was making conversation that well. And behold I never heard from her again after the date. It's like I'm the worst date she's ever had.
Yet people get together everyday. They go from one person to the other. It's like everyone has this secret that I wasn't informed about. I know im not the best at conversation, but everyone else is? Doubt it, but connecting with women is still so difficult. It's depressing really.