As the title says, I plan on leaving my S/O. But, I'm not 100% sure on what the best option is. The reason I'm leaving him is that he's. Frankly abusive, emotionally-financially- and physically to my cat's. It's always, something. There's never just a calm moment anymore and I just can't really take it anymore, I keep falling into a pattern of saying I'm leaving and then end up staying because of lovebombing and me thinking it'll be fine. But then we go right back around into an endless circle, and I'm just so so exhausted. Frankly, I'm scared I'll fall for it all over again and I just can't, not anymore. I planned on leaving once our lease is up, which is at the end of July and I haven't said anything, I have a friend of mine who's offered to house me until I can get on my feet (bless him) and he's planning on getting me when July comes around. But, is this the best idea? I'm not sure if he would, hurt my cat's upon leaving, or if he'd attack my friend. It's all so difficult, and I understand that I could try to get him out of the house until I've packed and left but, thats really hard to do since I can't exactly tell him to go somewhere, and we work at the same place. So that's a bust as well, any advice for this is extremely appreciated.
I guess the only other thing I need advice on is, how exactly do a I keep from falling back into this cycle? How do I sever the feelings I once had for this guy? I mean, does it piss me off what he does? Severely. But, I'm also a very tinder hearted person who's more or less just stuck with Stockholm Syndrome, or possibly codependency. I'm not really sure anymore. I just. Want to be free of this. Thank you for reading. <3