So here is my little story. I (38m) and my girlfriend (32f) are a couple since 2 years. Last years, I've been stupid enough to write something cute to an Instagram girl (31f) who I've been following for the last 6 years, and I'm not gonna hide it, I've had my fair time of fantasizing about her before my girlfriend come in the picture. My girlfriend got jealous, which I understand, we talk it out like adult. I have learn my lesson. During all the 2 years, she was self-critical of herself and really harsh on herself and her physique. She is also a people pleaser so she doesn't put her boundaries first but others pleasure first. During that time, I tell her a lot of time that her negative view affected me and it makes me feel like I was wrong to believe she is beautiful. Forward to last week, where I completly blew off. I took time and made the hardest decision I had. After discussing with her that despite my warning, she didn't reach for the help she needed, that we needed a break. We decided a month and said that we didn't know what would happen after. Now it's almost been a week. I find this really hard. Out of nowhere the Instagram girl ask me to do a photoshoot. I do that, since it's my new side hustle. Guess what, she is writing me a lot lately and seems really interested in me. I seem to have taunted the devil. Some part of me want to discover that girl personnality. But, at the same time I really feel nostalgic about the time with my girlfriend, I know she is not perfect but still was able to be myself. That new girl, yea it's kind of a fantasy coming true, but I don't know her very well for now. I'm so confuse right now. What would you do ? I want external neutral point of view.