I am turning 33 tomorrow and maybe I trying to force some reflective moment that doesnt have to happen, but I don't much about turning 33. There are lot of things I want to improve in my life and I am working to make those changes.
These post are a bit vague and annoying?
But I'll share some things and maybe something will hit someone that is working responding about.
I got married about two years ago soon. So newly married and I love being married, but I also am managing changes due to married life.
I went back to school for IT when I was 25 and graduated 2019. So i've been in IT for 5+ years and I regret it I think.
I've hit some health issues that changed my life significantly and I in therapy for anxiety. Biggest change was double concusions close enough apart that I ended up with psot concussion syndrome that has been a process: 14+ months of recovery so far.
My social life dipped bad due to life changes such as moving after college, deconstructing my faith (grew up in conservative christianity), and this PCS. Joint issues led to PT without clear diagnosis, but PT has helped. I just have narrowed my world a bit for physical activities.
I'm in a toxic job and actually have an interview tomorrow on my birthday. I've put a lot of weight on this interview because the economy is bad and this has been one of few shots of finally leaving my current job. It is more of a lateral move, and then from there I plan to push for higher salary becuase I only make 55k as the main provider.
We hope to start a family in a couple year, so I feel weight to make my career my main priority.
So my priorities is my health, career, and community. All things I've felt a bit stuck in, but I am feeling a little bit of progress.
I just went from being all in on evangelical church community to not going to church and having to let hobbies go such as rock climbing and mountain biking that also brought community.
I also lost track on budgeting since the concussion and I'm trying to get us back on track. My wife has significant ADHD so that is an aspect of our relationship I've had to learn communication for. And.. she has had to take care of me at my worst of my health and with my anxiety. So I'm not overall looking for relationship, more life advice.
I feel a lot of weight for my future. I don't want to stall out. I've never felt so isolated, other then being in a wonderful marriage. I've never been so weak, a year of recovery and I am only to 10 pushup and no pullups. I've never been that weak. I'm doing all the normal Dr stuff, so please don't take this as asking for medical advice.
So why am I sharing? Maybe because I am turning 33 and feel meh about it and kind of wish I could find something meaningful in this moment of my life that feels like bit of low in some areas.