Throwaway account because of family on here. Married for over 30 years, adult children.
My wife hit menopause some years ago. At first not much was noticeable. In fact, our relationship grew stronger. Then something changed very, very rapidly. Over the course of just 4 months she completely withdrew. She changed from warm, open and always interested into being cold, distant and always angry. She's frequently looking for fights and gets downright verbally agressive and even abusive during them. Our adult children notice the same in how she approaches them and they adressed it with me.
We've talked a lot about this and i want to be absolutely clear: SHE HERSELF NAMES MENOPAUSE AS THE CAUSE. There's nothing else going on, she still loves me and our children, wants to grow old together and there absolutely is no infidelity at play.
She feels absolutely fine being who and how she is now. She's completely adament and open about that. She acknowledges that she changed drastically and how that impacts our marriage and family dynamics. But this is who she is now and she very much likes the new her.
Obviously, good for her!
Point is though that i hardly recognise her anymore. This is not the person i married but in a way that's oke because we all change over the decades. I'm for sure not the man i was at 25 either. The issue is that this is not a person i would fall in love with or would want to marry. And our adult children struggle in a similar way, having a mother they hardly reckognise.
I need advice on how to deal with this. I notice that i mourn the loss of my wife and struggle big time with the person now sharing my life. She on the other hand is perfectly happy and refuses any form of marriage counseling or any other form of therapy. I had therapy for this but that obviously didn't change the factual situation.
What can i do? I don't want to "simply divorce". After all, life can throw curveballs and i also wouldn't walk away if she got a life changing disease or accident. But what now?
EDIT: a lot of comments focus on other, way more serious causes. I fear that too. I see more changes that can't be explained by menopause alone. I discussed it with her. She acknowledged that she feels something else might be seriously wrong but she simply refuses to go and see a doctor.
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I think it would help to know what kinds of things you’re fighting about, and what she likes about the new her. I also wonder if she’d talk to her gynecologist as opposed to a therapist.
Tough spot to be in. Has she taken HRT since menopause? My wife, also 59 let it slide to point we (I) was ready to see her gone…few months of hormones she’s a totally different woman.
Elaborate on what she is angry about. Is she angry about what’s going on in the world or about how she realizes she’s being treated by someone? Or is she angry whenever she loses a board game, which is not how she used to react?
Elaborate on how she is cold. Is she cold because she asked for help around the house more and you said yes and did an extra load of laundry once and nothing more, so now she only does chores that serve her? Or is she cold because whenever you talk about your day she just says, “sucks to be you”?
Elaborate on how she’s distant. Is she distant because she picked up hobbies and friends and no longer is home at your beck and call? Or is she distant because she declines to spend any time with you or the kids?
There are two theories about hormone changes and women’s behavior, because a very similar thing happens during pregnancy where it’s common for women to hate their husband while pregnant or postpartum.
It could be that her personality has completely changed and she is now an irrational person. Similar to when men go through a mid life crisis and begin acting out in ways that are counter to their entire previous life.
The other idea is that female hormones like estrogen and progesterone naturally promote agreeableness and a desire to be a caretaker and peacemaker. When these hormones drop the women then have less of an internal drive to ignore poor behavior. A lot of times women will post while pregnant and say “it never used to bother me that he didn’t clean up after himself or ask me about my interests but now I want to stab him.”
I don’t know your home, so it’s possible your situation is the former rather than the latter. If she is just having a big mid life change to an unpleasant personality, and she doesn’t want to go to therapy and you don’t want to divorce, I guess the only option left is to tolerate it.
But if it is possible that you and your kids have contributed to her disagreeableness then there may be hope in therapy if it isn’t framed as “fixing” her.
Fuck that sucks. Sometimes I wish I could secretly record people, just to play the video back to show them how they look/act to others. Sometimes people are so lost in their emotions, that they don’t see themselves…
Perimenopause and post menopause describe the periods of time before and after menopause which is a singular date—one year since your last period in women who have a uterus and ovaries. Just to clarify.
Most people associate hot flashes and maybe night sweats with peri/menopausal women. But those aren’t the only nor often the worst symptoms. We get all sorts of fun ones like: anxiety, insomnia, rage, depression, hair loss on head, hair growth on face, brain fog, fatigue, UTI’s, atrophy of the clitoris causing difficulty with orgasm, atrophy of the labia, loss of elasticity of vaginal wall causing painful intercourse, loss of libido, increased adipose tissue in the abdomen, bone loss, heart disease, incontinence, uterine prolapse.
Studies done across the world have shown that getting on HRT within 10 years of onset greatly reduces risks of osteoporosis, heart disease, cancer, and Alzheimer’s. Using bioidentical systemic HRT offers significant reduction of the symptoms I listed above, localized estrogen cream or vaginal suppositories helps with urogenital health, and testosterone cream/gel can help with energy, libido, and weight gain.
I’ll be honest, there were times before I got on HRT that I had so much abject rage—I don’t think my family realizes how close they came to death or how much energy it took me some days not to burn the house down. Kidding…sort of. But it was like my brain and my body were not my own.
I can absolutely appreciate that she is in “zero fucks to give” mode and enjoying it to some extent because she’s likely now saying and doing/not doing things under the guise of being menopausal that she’s wanted to say, do/not do forever.
But she’s damaging her relationships and her physical health and shortening her life if she doesn’t take steps to replace the hormones she’s lost.
As for what you can do? Keep your head down, I guess. You can’t make her do anything. And since you’re adamant that you won’t divorce I guess you just suffer along and your adult kids can cut her out of their lives.
Have you told her that you don’t actually like who she’s becoming and she is not the person you thought you could grow old with.
I would ask her to actually consult a doctor about this. She may genuinely think it is menopause, and it may well be, but there are other possibilities (such as the early stages of dementia) that she presumably is not qualified to rule out.
My husband and I are also 59. I haven’t been the same person for ten years. I never get hot flashes, but I have a lot of the symptoms you described above. It is crazy. I never want to go anywhere or do anything. I work and go to bed. I am so tired all the time. I went to my GYN and got a hormone patch and some pills. I am hoping they work. Best of luck .
My missus is going through perimenopause at the moment. It’s a bit of a time, I’ll tell you. She is looking for things that support her, she’s got a supplement (Happy Mammoth) that helps her sleep, and more sleep=less snappy. She’s also talking to her friends in the same boat and working out what is good and what isn’t (there are other relationships that have been negatively impacted by this period of life).
The things you fight about – if it’s anything like us, they’re not the actual issue. There are some fundamental changes happening underneath everything that will absolutely alter the course of your lives. How everybody chooses to deal with it is the main concern.
You say she likes who she is now – sounds like she might be feeling her power. You may need to try to meet her where she is – actually, she might actually take a shine to that. Look, properly, at who she is now. Outspoken, very much her own person, powerful in her own right. To me, honestly, that would be a massive aphrodisiac – right now my wife is a bit diminished with perimenopause, and I just want her to fucking ROAR. But that’s our dynamic, not yours.
I honestly will move heaven and earth to be with my missus. She’s been there through so much with me, she’s seen my own Jekyll and Hyde show (trust me, it’s bad), and she’s stayed with me through some of the most horrific shit (literal). Now I am returning that favour.
At the end of the process if she’s done with me? Then that’s her call. I won’t support it at this point obviously because I want to be with her. But if it’s truly run its course then I will mourn our relationship and move on. But clearly that is not what I want – what I want is that we both die together having had a long and fulfilling life. But we don’t generally get to choose our fate.
I’m hoping you can find a way to get through this – I truly am barracking for you and your relationship. I think we come into contact with each other in this world only fleetingly, and so one that keeps coming back is a precious thing. Good luck, and I truly hope you can work things out.
Since you are dead set against divorce and your wife likes the new version of herself, you could live separately but remain married. Some couples make this arrangement work.
One possible outcome of living separately is that your wife might begin to miss your presence. She also might enjoy the solitude, and you might enjoy not being abused by your spouse. You could set up a guaranteed date night once a week to maintain a connection with your wife.
While I know this suggestion puts more of a strain on family finances, it could sustain the marriage at no higher cost than the two of you being divorced. It has the added benefit that absence may make the heart grow fonder.
She likes who she is. She doesn’t care if you like it, or her kids like it, you just have to deal. She isn’t the woman you married anymore. Tell her exactly how you feel, that she might ok with the new her, but she isn’t who you see yourself enjoying your retirement with. If she dismisses you or get mad you’ll have you answer.
You tell her she might be ok with the person she is becoming but you are not, and you are not prepared to spend the rest of your marriage being a punching bag for her angry outbursts. If she can’t bring herself to address the issue, you don’t see a viable future together.
When my mom was going through menopause She was awful, she said some really rude things and felt kind of depressed and just not herself for a few years.
Eventually it passed and she’s back to being herself again, but she wasn’t really aware that her behavior was weird during menopause, and she doesn’t remember a lot of the weird things that she did. So it’s hard to talk to her about it because she doesn’t know what I’m referring to….must be nice.
We had a family friend that left her husband, left all of her friends, and started hooking up with another guy who she married and it’s a few years past and apparently it was just a menopause spree, I’m not sure how Mr spree is taking that information. We had another family friend that started smoking after about 40 years of not smoking when she hit menopause. It can be a really wild time.
Generally the first step is to get a blood test done to see where her hormones are at and then treat that with hormone therapy or whatever the doctor recommends.
The wife that you married may return to you, after a few very rocky and hard years. If possible see if you can wait it out and try to coexist as peacefully as possible. If you can’t that’s also up to you.
Has she been to her OBGYN? Has she discussed her hormone levels and if she needs HRT? Are there any other medications she needs because her body is changing? If she’s on hormones she may need to have them changed or the dishes altered.
I’m not medically qualified, but 59 sounds awfully old for menopause to be hitting this hard.
She might think it’s that, but other commenters have suggested other medical reasons, and I think that is likely. Some people have insinuated that you are a crap partner, but you said that your adult children have noticed it too, so I don’t think that’s it either.
I wonder if she’s just feeling trapped in her life ? At nearly 60 there’s not really any chance for career progression, the kids are adults and don’t really need either of you any more. In someways it’s all downhill from here.
I’m wondering if she’s been unhappy for a long time, but stayed because of the kids. Now the kids are grown up, but she possibly feels too old to leave and start again.
Has she seen her doctor about this? Menopause can completely hollow you out as a person. It’s basically like going through puberty again but instead of maturing, things are stripped away from you.
Physically and mentally women go through so much change and there csn be a lot of pain and physical and mental discomfort.
If she knows menopause is to blame, then she knows it’s jer responsibility to seek medical advice.
She does not have to suffer in this and make everyone around her suffer as well.
As I go into perimenopause I’m seeing the reason women often get called bitches or Karens at this age. We’ve spent out whole lives not speaking out, doing what we’re told, owning everything else we’re not told but just inherently own because we’re women, being subservient, taking on all the emotional and household labor. And honestly it’s really depressing to see that men just never had to do any of this.
As I get older I want to make up for all the living I’ve missed and I’m starting to push back on the worlds expectations of me. I’m noticing that when you start thinking and working and prioritizing for yourself, many others often see is as an affront to their right to your time and effort and agreeableness. I’m done with that shit now. I am going to take all the rights I should have had as a man my whole life and I’m going to enjoy them with the time I have left.
I mean, you’re kind of at a breaking point, so why not be vulnerable and frank about the situation? Ask her if she even enjoys being around you and the kids anymore because the way she’s treating you is seeming like she very much doesn’t. Ask her what is the plan here long term? She just wants to stay in that dynamic forever? Is she also being nasty towards friends/pets/the hobbies she used to love? It worth pointing that out if that’s the case. And if her response to vulnerability is to “loose respect” then idk if there’s much getting through to her. I’m sorry, what you’re going through must be so hurtful. And like, you say she’s “perfectly happy” to stay like this, but doesn’t sound like she’s very happy. Sounds more like she’s very stubborn.
If she won’t seek help and is happy with who she is now then you don’t have many options.
Either seek divorce and hope that drags her back to the real world or..
Stop enabling her behaviour. You say you do 75% of the chores. Stop that and make sure you stop the chores that will impact her the most.
When she starts to rant at you just hold your hand up to her and tell,her that you WILL NOT engage with her when she is acting like a spoilt child.
Tell her that you no longer like her and are seriously questioning if the little love you have left is enough to stay with her. Hopefully she will be forced to do something for herself and for your marriage. You do not deserve this treatment and, although menopause can have awful effects it is not an excuse to treat others poorly.
You could also try filming her during one of her outbursts and then tell her you will playing that to all the family, colleagues and friends. If she doesn’t want you to do that then ask her why not? She has told she is happy how she is so she shouldn’t be embarrassed by it!
This isn’t to shame her. It’s to make her reflect on herself. But you must be strong and stop being her emotional punching bag.
You have to tell her that you don’t like who she’s become. She can like who she is now but that doesn’t mean you’re obligated to deal with someone who is cold, harsh and generally doesn’t seem to care about how she treats you.
I think that some women see hitting menopause as their chance to say fuck this to all of the things they felt that had to do. that can include sex but that can also include being kind and accommodating when you simply don’t want to be. But again that doesn’t mean you have to stick around for it. You loved the woman you married. This new person isn’t really that woman anymore. Or it is and she’s no longer wearing her mask. Whatever the case is you don’t have to stay with her
Menopause, brings out the inner demons. Everything that she has endured for a total totality of the marriage will come out and be outside. I am in her situation and used to be an introvert with my feelings I was able to endure all the harsh treatment from my family. I no longer am capable of keeping it all bottle inside. We are not shy about hiding our feelings during menopause. The only suggestion I would give is work with her. Maybe you need to be malleable or help out in the areas that makes her like that.
As someone married 30 years and kids out of the house, I’m realizing how little my husband does around the house. I’m kind of fed up and menopause isn’t helping. She sounds frustrated.
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Browse r/menopause but be careful about posting there. You will see this is pretty common.
Estrogen is a people pleasing hormone. Once it’s gone from your body you feel very different. This is why divorce is so common during this time.
Your wife must find a good doctor that is going to prescribe her what she needs. Not for you for her. HRT isn’t one size fits all but it can be life saving. Women spend their whole lives pleasing those around them. So thanks for giving her grace. Only she can help herself but do be honest.
It’s ok to get therapy about this. It’s ok to consider divorce. It’s ok to see if something is happening medically (something like early onset Alzheimer’s maybe???)
A sudden, dramatic personality change years after going through menopause does NOT sound like menopause to me. The time course (4mo) and what the personality changed to (antisocial towards everyone without remorse) is concerning for a neurological/brain disease. She needs to see a doctor as soon as possible, and you need to tell them everything that’s happening.
Out of curiosity – does she work? How has that been going? Any friendships? Changes in hobbies? Being reckless?
Hormone Replacement Therapy or divorce.
You know that people tend to become bigger AHs as they get old, right? How far are you willing to take this? Your kids? When do they opt out of family stuff and start taking trips on holidays instead of visiting you and the mean person you’re now married to.
If she likes herself so much, that’s great. She might end up being the only person in her presence.
Have an in-law, married 30+ years, whose wife changed. All of a sudden she wanted a divorce but still wanted to live with her husband.
Apparently she had some type of mini-sroke.
Your wife could have other underlying medical issues.
Good luck.
Maybe she has only testosterone left. It happens. Causes major changes. That wouod make you feel like you’re married to an aggressive male. Not all hormones decrease at the same time. I heard this from a doctor.
In my early perimenopause days one day I was rage yelling and inside my head I was thinking “why am I THIS angry?!” I knew it wasn’t normal and I needed medical support, that was not me. Coupled with the lack of sleep due to hot flashes, I was miserable. I found the right doctor who tested all my hormones and got on bio-HRT. Life changer.
Does she have other symptoms? How are her friendships? I am struggling with how she’s happy with who she is, being feisty all the time, unless it’s the freedom in one’s 50s to not care what other people think about you anymore….but there’s a difference in that and being an out of control a-hole.
If you can’t get through to her at some point, maybe she will see it on her own when she’s completely ostracized you, your kids, friends etc. and it could be too late to repair the damage unfortunately. I would listen if my husband really laid it for me – you should not tolerate too much of this.
Why would you want to grow old with someone that attacks you, that “loses respect for you”, when you try to talk about your emotions?
This is a situation where an ultimatum is the right course of action.
“I’m glad you like who you are, but I don’t. Understand I don’t like you right now. So if you’re not willing to address your new abusive personality I can’t stay with you.”
Internally give her X time to adjust herself and if she doesn’t it’s time to divorce.
She *needs* to consult a doctor. She may need hormone replacement medication. Yes, hormone imbalances can and do change a person’s personality to extremes.
There is nothing wrong with getting help. It *is* a medical, physical/biological change that is affecting her. It *is* not a mental change or one that she can just change by will power.
Her emotional imbalances are hormonal. Get her help asap. Talk to her doctor yourself if she is hesitant to approach the doctor first.
Pre-menopause a lot of women spend a lot of time making other people happy and putting other peoples wellbeing first. This is due to hormones that encourage caregiving. After menopause, those hormones are no longer present so they are not as encouraged – biologically – to solve other people’s problems.
Not that they don’t care about other people they just don’t want to continue acting as the fixer for other peoples lives. For example, someone is hungry or can’t find something or has somewhere they want to go – in the past the woman’s hormones would have encouraged her to get them some food help them find it offer them a ride, because your hormones were balanced in a way that encouraged caregiving.
After menopause, those hormones are balanced differently. So now when someone around them is hungry or can’t find some thing or wants to go somewhere. They no longer feel compelled to solve that problem for the other person. But the other person isn’t used to the woman’s new boundaries, which include not being the problem solver for other people’s day-to-day issues. People take this personal personally and are upset when the woman is no longer serving their needs. So the woman has to stand up for herself and hold her boundary which often looks like being angry and arguing.
It is a difficult transition because yes, because her role in the family is changing from the caregiver that everyone can count on to solve their problems to someone who no longer wants to fulfill that role and has new boundaries. If this person’s family and friends only loved them for the services she provided as a caregiver this can cause irreparable damage. If her friends and family can accept that she’s no longer providing those caregiving services and still love her, then it can be a difficult transition, but can be amazing as they watch – and support – their post-menopause-loved-one flourish in her own joy and interests as she no longer spends all her time supporting everyone else and very interests and day-to-day needs.
Doctors who specifically specialize in Menopause as well as therapists who do as well. The Menopause Society (menopause.org). I am a psychotherapist at the Mayo Clinic and have seen many women afflicted in this way by Menopause. There are new and evidenced ways of treating and help to manage this natural process which has gotten the sham in terms of study/treatment and that is now changing. That website gives all types of practitioners who are part of and have the expertise to be part of the Menopause Society. Good luck.
I’m going through the change now at 45 and my personality has definitely changed because my tolerance for people has lowered extremely, I no longer care to be a people pleaser and since I’m constantly uncomfortable in my own body everyone is going to get whatever JayPanana they get that day and THATS THAT.