My boyfriend broke up with me (3OF). We were having a regular nice conversation via text and it just happened..he said he feels we are at different phases in our lives and he needs to focus on his career and I should do the same too, and he wishes me well… Once I read that text, I started feeling tightness in my chest and other physical symptoms and I sent a lot of messages trying to convince him and kept calling him.
Then I begged him to pick up and have one last conversation with me. We spoke on the phone and it did soothe me a bit, he ended by saying we will talk tomorrow.
Now, I’m feeling extreme feelings of shame. It’s like I lost all my self respect in that moment and begged. I’m spiraling out now. I feel awful, maybe I shouldn’t have responded to the text, maybe I should have kept it short and said “ok, I wish you well” .. but I begged him and asked if there was a problem, and we could work on it.
It’s just that I don’t handle breakups well, my last one left me so broken, I couldn’t eat, function or do anything. I can’t keep going like this.
How do I proceed from here? I literally begged him not to leave me. Yes, I have an anxious attachment style