Im taking a step back from dating and I want to focus on being friends with women. My intentions are pure in the sense that I am not trying to date them in the future. But I think having female friends will help me feel satisfied being single without expecting a relationship
To be honest, the two gfs that I have had in the past said I acted like a friend more than a bf anyway. I enjoyed all deep convos, our movie nights, and night out around the city. I think what made it platonic was my inability to flirt and constantly sleep with them. I say that to say that I am craving a strong female companion that isnt even sexually nature.
Am I wrong for wanting that? Im not sure because I never been good at making female friends. I have two examples and I am curious how I could have become friends with them.
First example was this girl in my med school. I kinda had a crush on her because she was pretty and popular but she chose me as a friend somewhat. She would invite me to lunch daily and I felt safe around her. Overtime, she trusted me to take her home after our bar events. I thought that we would become closer. However, she ended up getting close to other guys in the room. Over time, she wouldnt hang out with me and kinda ignore me.
The final straw was that I asked her to study 1on1. I was just trying to be friendly as she was technically the smartest one in the room. She ghosted and hung out with another guy. We are still friendly today as she will sometimes text me memes or check ins. But thats it.
I am more of a cool associate as we never hang out.
The second example is of a girl that just likes to complain lol. She is also really pretty but I never found her attractive. Mainly because she is extremely mean. However alot of guys like talking to her. She texts me every other day just to ask random questions about school. I always answer them and I never take her attitude personally.
We have hung out a few times as I am a good listener and she likes to vent lol. She is kinda annoying and I dont even know why I constantly listens. However, she is very loyal and responsive. Here is the thing though she is not friend. When school is over, we never text. I thought about it since I am not even caring, shouldn't I have been closer to her?
In both stories, I am more of a cool associate friend. It never bothered me at first but as I get older, I dont think I like this version of a friendship. But I dont know how to get close without it coming off like I am trying to date.
Does anyone have help for this?