Possibly too much mental health to deal with in one post but I'm just trying to see if other people have been able to build up their resilience to being heart broken over the silliest things when it comes to sex in general.
I've always had this desire to be a slut since I was young and now I'm hitting my mid-life. I'm running out of time to be stuck in this constant circle of wanting to be played with but not being able to handle the smallest bits of rejection or being an object to be used and discarded.
Seeing all the other girls posting in the same communities I'm trying to get into makes me feel incredibly uncomfortable and I don't know if I can even explain why that is. Like, I want to make it clear I'm not mad at them for doing the same thing or that I'm slut shaming because clearly that's what I want to be able to do myself.
I'm so confused and scared.