I am writing this because my head is spinning and I just need to get this out. I have known this girl for 3 years and we got more serious recently. We have had a lot of ups and downs but lately things felt different. We were talking about a real future and starting a family. I really thought she was the one.
*** To make things clear again: this is not about the show at all! ***
She went to Las Vegas for her best friend’s birthday. Two nights ago she was love bombing me and sending all kinds of explicit messages. Then out of nowhere she texts asking if I would be comfortable with her going to a Magic Mike show. I just asked why she wanted to go and she immediately called me to talk for a bit. She told me she was "just asking" and that they were actually just going to McDonald’s and then going to sleep because they were tired.
I want to be clear that I do not care about the show. I have been to strip clubs and it is not a big deal to me. What matters is the calculated lie.
She used the time difference where I am as an excuse to say goodnight early. When I got suspicious because she has a history of lying she told me to just trust her and said she loved me. Then she went completely ghost for the exact duration of the show. I could see my messages being delivered with the double check marks but she ignored everything. She finally popped up 15 minutes after the show ended playing dumb and saying they were just at a random bar talking.
When I called her out she let her friend take the phone. This friend is married with 3 kids and she sent me this aggressive long paragraph calling me “insecure”, “immature”, and telling me to “relax dude” and that I needed a “reality check”. She even lied and said they had no internet even though I saw the messages delivering in real time.
The only reason I know the truth is because the friend messed up. I asked her if she told her own husband where they were and she said: "Yes, he knew we were going there. And he is a very mature guy." They realized right then that they just killed the "random bar" lie and they both started frantically deleting every message to hide the evidence. I luckily got screenshots before they disappeared.
I blocked her on everything immediately. I am not going back because I could never respect myself in a relationship with someone who coordinates with a friend to gaslight me. She has even sworn on her mother’s health to cover lies in the past.
The problem is the 3 year history is hitting me really hard today. I am firm on my decision but I am stuck in a loop.
How do you stop your brain from trying to "solve" the lies or replay the events when you already know the truth?
How do you deal with the grief of losing the person you thought they were?
TL;DR: My girlfriend that I know for 3 years lied about her plans in Vegas and had her friend shame me to cover it up. They got caught because the friend slipped up. I am done but I am struggling with the mental betrayal.