I feel really upset.
for context and help:
I keep trying to get people to like me and force myself to socialise and hang out with people but when I stop they stop also.
for my "friends" birthdays, I gifted them and wished them well and I spent time with them but they didn't do that for me.
whenever a friend needs me for like a photoshoot thing,quick hangout. I'm always making time so I can be available for them but they don't do the same for me.
I'm 18 I can't die alone but I also can't keep force love bombing people to maintain friends and connections when they can't be bothered to do the same.