ately my best friend and I haven't been well in our minds (family issues, diploma pressure and life) but we kept being here for each others. Lately we've both had a lot of "emotional" breakdowns, we would never get angry or insult each other but more like both fall into a miserable state while talking to the other and we would just listen and try to recomfort in anyway. And it would always work out, in like 7 months we didn't have any issues , maybe some slight missunderstandings every now and then but we always solved it in the next 12 hours and even those happened very rarely, like once every two months)
Recently, I did a mistake, she was opening up to me and I misspoke, she said she has a hard time feeling understood by people around her, me included (I often struggle to put my feels into words and my way of relating to people is often re-interpretating throught metaphors to show that I did understand).
We've always been here for each others lately and our fights never lasted too long (but she is the smarter emotionnal cog)
I shall point out that I did not start the "emotional" overload of hers but I was kinda the "last line of defense" and me fucking up really messed her brain up
So we were just sitting around and she started opening up to me about something
I am sometimes too honest when I speak and blurted out "you may be a b*tch to deal with, and it's hard, I do struggle sometimes but I'll do my best about it", the thing is that she was already loaded up emotionally by her family & friends who pressured her a lot and she thought I called her a "b*tch".
She was on and about the fact that she felt like a drag, a nuisance, and my goal was to emphasize that "everyone" can feel like a b*tch (sorry for the repetition) and that imperfection doesn't mean you aren't worth it
I tried to clarify right away that it was not the case; that my intent was not to call her that , I said "sorry I mispoke", that I meant the situation overall was a b*itch but at the same time it may have enforced the negative build up in her and she just stormed out of the room and went back to her place.
When she is loaded emotionally she has the habit of shutting down, but this time it feels different so I'm unsure if I should reach out or give her time because I know I messed up big but I want to make amend for it asap, there's the fear in that whatever I do it might worsen things up because I am supposed to be the person she trusts the most and I feel like I did betray that just because I spoke poorly.
So I am worried, will this slight mistake end it all because I failed as her last line of trust, or should I just wait it out a bit/reach out? Because her reaction is nothing like I've seen before and I am honestly worried for her because she's all alone right now.
TL;DR : I messed up reassuring my friend, she stormed out, I tried to apologise for it but she didn't listen, should I reach out or let her a bit of time? I am worried it might end our bond.