I consider myself average to below average, sometimes even cute on a good day, there are times where I find myself looking horrible in photos and bright lighting though. But I genuinly can’t tell if other people find me ugly or not.
I’ve had the “my friend likes you”/“that guy over you likes you” joke a few times, I recieve little to no male attention, I recieve little to no compliments and the only ones i receive are basic ones about be being “smart” or “funny”. In almost every friend group I’ve been in, I’ve been excluded or the side character. Almost no one ever texts me or talks to me first unless it’s for assignments or small talk. I always have to reach out to people for interaction and even then they don’t often initiate back. I’m not loud, but I’m not antisocial either and I consider myself a friendly person.
These should be sure signs that I’m ugly, but I’ve never faced antagonism or hostility because of my looks. When I talk to the opposite gender, I’m not met with aversion or mockery and most people are friendly to me. But I just get ignored. Only sometimes do I get complimented on my outfit or once in a while, I get told that I’m not ugly by my friend when she finds a comment I made about being ugly. But it’s not like I’m ever called attractive either.