I’ve [18M] only been having this issue for a couple weeks now, but it’s still taking a toll on my mental health. This probably seems childish and unimportant, however the dwelling is killing me.
My boyfriend [18M] lives a much better life than me; he is physically healthy, has no mental health problems, has his own personal hobbies and interests, he’s pretty much all figured out, and I am a wreck of a person and I have no clue what I’m doing or who I am or what I like. I do love him very much and he loves me too, so I don’t know why I keep comparing us in my head, why I keep telling myself how much better he is than me, and making myself believe that I don’t deserve him because of this. I’ve become so jealous of him that I get upset when he talks about his interests to me or even just what he’s doing throughout the day.
I have briefly brought up this issue with him once, and when I did he reassured me and then that was the end of the conversation. I feel like I need to continue talking about this until my problem goes away, although I don’t want to bother him with this insecurity any longer.
TL;DR: I have created a big insecurity within myself (self image issues?) due to comparing myself to my boyfriend, and I worry that it’ll cause unwarranted resentment for him if it continues.