It’s 2am so forgive me if im all over the place and i guess this isn’t technically dating advice when im not dating anyone. This might sound juvenile but I’m a senior(female) in Highschool and never had a boyfriend. Sure I’ve hooked up with some guys, been in a “talking stage” and lost my virginity but I’ve never had a boyfriend.
I’m mostly posting this because my best friend started dating this guy she’s been talking to tonight and I was getting insecure. Of course I’m happy for her and she deserves to have a guy who likes her but I can’t help but feel a hint of jealousy. She’s had plenty of boyfriends, etc. before because she’s gorgeous.
I guess I’m writing all of this because I feel like boys don’t really like me and it kinda makes me sad. I’m not a male centered person at all and I enjoy my life as an independent person but watching all of my friends “fall in love” or just have boyfriends in general just makes me feel like I’m not pretty or whatever. It probably sounds stupid as fuck but nobody can deny that it feels good when someone they find attractive expresses interest in them. And it’s hard to watch that happen to the majority of people you are surrounded by without feeling jealous. I’m a complex person and I also kind of have a rep at school from some girl drama freshman and sophomore year. It also doesn’t help that most of the girls at my school are size 0, gorgeous long (probably fake) hair, and rich. Lol
I suppose im just searching for advice on how to cope with this? I know high school boyfriends and high school love isn’t everything but I hope maybe someone who felt this way could understand. I’m just tired of feeling like “less than” because I’ve never been in a real relationship.