F30…i've been long distance dating this guy for the past 6ish months. He's genuine, kindhearted, and mentally stable with a fulfilling life. He makes me feel secure and safe.
The problem? I have an itching feeling that I want to break things off with him simply because im starting to get "bored." I lack a sense of passion and excitement from him, because I'm used to the toxic relationships i've had in the past, where the highs were high and the lows were low.
My dating history is filled with red flags, most notably a guy i dated for months who lovebombed me in such an intense way before completely ghosting me out of the blue, and my one long term relationship unfortunately turned into an abusive relationship with an addict, (which im in therapy to heal from.)
I know this feeling of boredom is just coming from the fact I was always used to being lovebombed and manipulated. So after finally meeting a guy who is an open communicator, empathetic and consistent, I'm reading it as boredom and lack of passion.
I don't want to end things with him! He treats me so well. But I can't stop this feeling that I want to seek someone more "exciting" and I feel horrible and stupid for feeling that way.
Anyone been in this position before? How I can stop feeling like fleeing for such a petty reason?
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EDIT: A lot of you seemed to have missed the point! I never said he was boring. I said I was feeling bored because previous relationships set the norm of love bombing, obsession, and creating unstable attachment cycles. Also I said I don't want to end things with him because I know how lucky I am to find someone as great as him! Hence why I was asking this question.
And lastly, to clarify, he is not my boyfriend, we are just dating.
Thanks to those of you who have given insightful input!
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ANOTHER EDIT: A lot of internalized misogyny in the comments…yikes…never said I want a toxic guy! If I end it with this guy i'd go back to being single. Also, the reason why I clarified he is not my boyfriend is because I am following his lead! He wanted to stay single after getting out of a long term relationship, (for the record I am exclusive to him because I don't like to date around when I'm focusing on one person.) Although he did not express he is exclusive to me, (and I am ok with that because I am patient and trusting.) Maybe the boredom comes from the really slow moving pace after 6 months.
Additionally, a lot of you are really twisting the situation. When I expressed I had bad relationships in the past, you do realize I never intended to get into them, right? Bad relationships often stem from a guy who seems like Mr. perfect at the start, the lovebombing and future tripping reels you in. And then the heat gets turned up in very subtle ways, and before you know it you're stuck in a cycle, trying to stay to be a good girlfriend, and trying to see them in a good light, wondering if your the reason they're treating you badly.
As mentioned I am in therapy, so the redundant suggestions can chill. Maybe a lot of you need to look in the mirror and get therapy yourselves if you think all women are out to get you.
For the record, I want nothing more than a good guy, and to be treated with respect. However it's not such a horrible thing to want a little more passion or spark in a relationship.