I am 18F and my boyfriend is 19M (we are less than a year apart; I'm turning 19 in two months). We have been together for a year and a month and have known each other for almost a year and a half.
However, we have never had sex. I come from a conservative family, and he is scared to do it. We have only helped each other get off, with no penetrative intercourse. We both want to take that step, but he says he will only do it if I buy the protection myself. Since this is my first relationship and I was raised conservatively, I already feel guilty about what we do. If I were the one to buy protection, it would hurt my self-respect and make me feel desperate. While I want to do it, I feel that not initiating or buying protection is the least I can do for myself. It may not seem like a big deal for many, but I feel like it has something to do with my mindset. Is my mindset incorrect?
++he already bought one before early on the rs. however, i declined since i felt back then that it was way too early to do it.
+++he said that he want me to be the one to buy it cause he dont trust himself. he’s nervous and will only calm down if i bought it myself. Idk if thats really the reason, or he just dont want to be blamed once things go south