Im in a relationship with my GF ( 20 yrs ) since almost 4 months. I knew about her sex trauma and ptsd since the beginning because we've been friends first before dating.
We started having sex at 2nd month. Ive been very careful first ofc and we started having sex regularly like 2-3 times a week.
1 month ago when I became too comfortable accidently triggered my GF sex trauma from her past. I tried waking her up by touching her to have sex. She woke up and let me touch her but I noticed she looked uncomfortable so I stopped ofcourse. Usually she would say no or put my hands away when she doesnt like something but this time she just looked like a doll.
So in the next morning I apologized to her if I made her uncomfortable. She said it triggered her trauma from the past and had flashbacks because her father used to wake her up in the night. I felt terrible ofc and sincerely apologized for causing it.
But since then she stopped being sexually intimate with me since a month now although she still sleeps next to me and likes to cuddle occasionally. But I fear when I try to engage sexually with her I start to look like her father to her ever since triggering her trauma 1 month ago. She is also an avoidant type of person so its hard for me to know her actual feelings.
I wonder if she can see me again as the same person before I triggered her trauma when I engage with her sexually or what I can do to fix it.