Context: I’ve known this girl for 10 years now since we were teenagers. When we first met we were both in love with each other (something she confirmed tonight). The reason why I didn’t do anything was because unbeknownst to me at the time her friends hated me and they told me that she really didn’t like me but she did. Woulda shoulda coulda. Over the years we’ve dated other people but we’ve always talked and that spark never left. When we were in college we would do stupid things like send each other nudes and we made out one time but it never got further than that. Whenever she got drunk she would (and still does) text me saying that she really likes me or something along those lines.
Context tldr: known this girl for 10 years and we have been on and off again to various degrees over that time
About a week ago she was drunk and she says she wants to date me. I say fuck it sure. Fast forward to today and I bring it up again and now she says we aren’t dating because she was drunk. She told me (unprompted btw) that she thinks I’m attractive and that we click really well and that she really likes me but she isn’t looking to date anyone right now. I asked her if she’s ever been in love with me and she said yes. I told her so did I. We kept talking and I ended up telling her I’m still in love with her. I don’t think I should’ve either for pride or whatever. But I do, even if at some points I tried to convince myself I wasn’t. She didn’t say anything I hadn’t already heard tonight after that. What’s really getting me is the part about her not wanting to date anyone right now. I’ve been on the giving and receiving end of that before and I know what it really means. I asked her if she meant it like she doesn’t want to date anyone or me specifically. Didn’t really get a concrete answer. I really just wish I never met her in the first place sometimes.
Tldr she gets drunk, says she wants us to start dating, now she doesn’t, I told her I’m still in love with her