(18F) Hi. So as the title says, everytime i finger and penetrate myself it starts to hurt and burn, and I start crying a LOT.
I dont know whats this but it always happens, from like an year and half ago (when I started doing it) to now. Other strange thing is that I don't get wet, never did. I usually use spit and two fingers, and I can't stand that "in and out" move, it fucking burns. So I basically just curl my fingers very fast and the deeper I can.
The problem is, its good, but only because it hurts. I dont know if im really hurting myself (probably not, cus im a virgin but I belive sex is much more aggressive than this), but this is the only way I feel something. Also I feel sick, and I feel chills as if I have a cold. And then I start crying. Its not fun, its not horny. Its just stressful, even the "good" sensation inside my uterus and vaginas feel guilty.
Im sorry for the long text, but idk how to summarize it.