My [28f] boyfriend [27m] and I have been together for almost 4 years. Very early on in the relationship I found out he is a virgin and wants to wait until marriage. At first I found this unusual because it's so normal for couples to have sex. He did tell me it was based on religious beliefs and I understood and agreed to this. We are still sexually active in other ways and we are still able to please each other. The only thing we do not do is actual intercourse/penetration.
A year into the relationship, I was scrolling through his photos to look at baby pictures when I decided to look into his secure folder. There I found multiple screen recordings of cam girls and photos of naked woman. I confronted him and asked if he was hiding anything from me and he immediately admitted that he had a porn addiction and it started way before he met me. I was absolutely gutted and thought it was somehow my fault. That I wasn't able to satisfy his needs and that I wasn't good enough. He swore he never talked to them or did anything besides view the images and save them. We talked and he apologized perfusely. We almost broke up that night but we decided to be completely honest and he said he would stop. He deleted everything and deleted the cam girl accounts in front of me.
He felt terrible and ashamed and I forgave him.
I wanted to believe him and wanted to move on but I found myself constantly looking through his phone. I had a feeling that he was still watching these videos and that he was being more secretive about it. I decided to do more digging today and looked through his email since it's saved on my iPad. I found that he had purchased coins for a camgirl website in December. I then found archived screen recordings of camgirl videos and on these websites he is actively chatting with them. The most recent one was in December. There's even a video of him on the screen masturbating to one of them. Further down there is even screen recorded Snapchat videos of a girl he used to talk to before he met me. For some reason the random strangers doesn't hurt me as much, but it's the videos of someone he used to know that does.
My heart was pounding and I was literally shaking but I'm not surprised? I think I'm more angry than hurt. It's the constant hiding and lying to my face. We've talked about the future like moving in together, marriage, kids. We have had a wonderful relationship and he really is the most patient and sweetest man ever. Which is why this situation is so difficult for me. Is this an addiction that's so severe he needs professional help? Can he really change and stop doing this? Or am I wasting my time with someone who I feel like I don't really know anymore.
[Tl;dr] My [28f] boyfriend [27m] and I have been together for almost 4 years. We haven't had sex yet due to his religious beliefs. He has a porn addiction that we talked about in the first year of our relationship. I found out he is still actively looking and participating in camgirl websites. Is this an addiction that's so severe he needs professional help? Can he really change and stop doing this? Or am I wasting my time with someone like this?