We have been dating for 4 years, and he has been nothing but amazing to me. He’s a gentleman, funny, handsome, intelligent, and I love spending time with him.
However, I simply cannot fully trust him because he is a man. Because of that, I feel like he’ll never be able to fully grasp my experiences and understand/care about them. even when it comes to simple things like why I care so much about my appearance, while he doesn't. And therefore, he’ll never be able to understand who I am outside of just being his girlfriend.
I have this underlying disgust for myself because I feel like he just uses me for when he wants to have a body to touch, even though I know that's not true. I find myself racked with shame for feeling like this for virtually no reason, but it’s something I have not been able to shake, and I just feel like he will never completely understand me as a human being because he has an ignorance to my experiences as a woman because he has never experienced them. and its not as if he doesn't care, it's always just a response of "oh yeah that sucks…"
Once again, he has given me no reason to feel this way. And I feel guilty because I’m essentially grouping him in with men who just use their girlfriends and secretly hate them.
What do I do?
Tl;DR I dont trust my bf because he is a man and cannot grasp what it is like to exist as a woman